Lord Grenville accepted a peerage, but never any other honour or advantage, and I wish to be permitted to retire in like manner.

If I was a poor man, I should have no hesitation in receiving money in the shape of place or pension; I _only don't wish_ for place, because I do not _want_ it." In the course of conversation Lord Melbourne said that he considered it very improbable that he should ever again form a part of any Administration.
He did not think that a violent course was at all to be apprehended from Lord John Russell; he said Lord John had been far more of a "finality" man than he had, and in the Cabinet had always been averse to violent change.

He added, "I think you are in error in forming the opinion which you have of him." Lord Melbourne thought the Queen very much disliked being talked _at_ upon religion; she particularly disliked what Her Majesty termed a _Sunday face_, but yet that it was a subject far more thought of and reflected upon than was [thought to be ?] the case.
[Pageheading: A DREADED MOMENT] _Viscount Melbourne to Queen Victoria._ SOUTH STREET, _15th August 1841._ ...

Lord Melbourne well knows the feeling which your Majesty describes.

The expectation of an event which is dreaded and deprecated, and yet felt to be certain and imminent, presents itself continually to the mind and recurs at every moment, and particularly in moments of satisfaction and enjoyment.