I was terrified.

So quiet as I had always seen him when we met, so steadily as he had pursued his daily duties; and with all this underneath--this torment, conflict, despair, of a young man's love.

It must come out--better it should.
"And you have gone on working all this while ?" "I was obliged.

Nothing but work kept me in my senses.

Besides"-- and he laughed hoarsely--"I was safest in the tan-yard.