A night's reflection has brought me back to it." "May I ask why you have returned to it?
surely you would not have hesitated without strong reasons." "I will tell you frankly.

If, by appearing to hesitate, I have misled you, I am honestly sorry for it.

I did not mean to do it.

My hesitation was owing to the doubt whether my life might not really be best used in aiding you.

My decision was owing to the certainty that we are not fitted for each other.